what the f*** happend to my site the last time i looked at it it was a black hahahahahaha dang its been a long while since i even did a entry. i like what my girl did it looks nice, muah i  love you babe!! ok, now im still here in chicago ill be here till november, i know it sucks but school isnt that bhad its kinda fun... i learned new things.. but i wish i was home... man i miss san diego.... oh yah the raiders won today hahahh... hell yah!!! neways.. got to go now ttyl!!

hello every one!!! its sad to say but this is the last day im going to be in san diego.. ill miss all of my friends and family!!! i love you all!! bye!! take cares!!

why is it when i sit down to write something in hear it feels like im holding back. like for some reason im trying to protect someone. either my self or someone.i have so much to say so much to talk about all these things in my mind i just want to let out but every time i write something i end up erasing it. yestarday i spent all day in my room asleep. just on my bed chilling, i wanted to go out but i guess its kinda hard for me now. i really dont have a car to use. and everytime i call people there always out already and yah i just think its stupid for them to go out of their way to pick me up. so i just stay home sleeping, dreaming... what a good way to spend my last days in san diego right? hahahaha it doesnt matter to me anymore... this is life i know how life is..  if you dont know what how life is, ill tell you. its a bi***!!! i know thats the pessimistic view but really what do you think? i have 49 days left and im at home doing nothing!! if you can find any thing good about staying homedurring my situation tell me.. man you know what f*** it who cares... anyways. well i want to at least try to spend some time with my friends before i leave... hopefully if im lucky i can get a car next week.. bye for now... talk to you all later take cares..